May the Force be with her

this board hasn't been active in quite some time. and if it had been, it would have gotten a royal work out this past year. 2016 has been the absolute shits in terms of celebrity deaths. far too many to name or number. but this last one... it just takes the cake and makes this probably the shittiest year i can remember.

Carrie Fisher passed away this morning. at the age of 60. i'm not linking to any articles. i'm sure there are plenty to find. i'm just putting it here for posterity. because i remember being a wee LDF when Star Wars: A New Hope came out. i remember being absolutely taken with the movie. i had a crush on Han Solo. cos, come on. space rogue/pirate? right up my alley in so many ways. but i was absolutely captivated by Princess Leia. because... dude. she kicked ass. she was a princess. and she didn't take shit from anyone. she picked up a blaster and fired at the enemy. she ordered the men around. she was bossy and strong and powerful and... i wanted to be her. it was probably the first time i'd seen an adult that i wanted to be like. Leia made such an impact. and because she was played by Carrie Fisher, Carrie made an impact. one that has lasted with me through all these many long years. she was amazing and talented and strong and so... unapologetic about who she was. about her mental illness and how it defined her. about everything. she was a fucking role model. she's fucking iconic. and she's just gone and i can't ever thank her for giving me permission to be weird and strong and bossy and driven and all of those other things that Leia and Carrie were.

2016 can die in a fucking fire. it can burn for an eternity for taking so many wonderful, talented, amazing, beautiful people from us. but i'll never forgive 2016 for this. fuck this year. fuck it with a bat embedded with rusty nails. fuck everything about it. i can't believe she's just gone.

i'm just... i'm wrecked.